--IN CASE YOU CAN'T TELL, I’M NOT VERY
GOOD AT THIS
…Things can get
lost in the overlap.
…What are we
looking for again?
…I might have a
black mold problem, and you need sleep.
…The trash goes
out, but it seeps back in increment like the backflow of blood.
…We should make
you an appointment, first thing tomorrow.
…We couldn’t be
any safer, could we?
…Life only
moves in one direction.
…I didn’t want
that either.
…Those times
were terrible, but they grew so familiar and looking back, I’d say they were
even beautiful.
…Out on the
lake, ghosts are singing an opera.
…Terrifying
things come in very small pieces, slowly seeping in.
…I took a walk
down the driveway just to feel the trees reach for me in the dark.
…I know how
crazy it sounds, but that doesn’t mean it’s made up.
…I did what the
book suggested—I ignored things.
…I’m no good at
séances, but I could host an amazing playdate with the afterlife.
…I’m fighting
off the voices and doing my job.
…Growing up,
none of us, except the richer kids who skied, had enough warm clothes.
…Is it possible
to mourn and celebrate at the same time?
…My body has
become a hard bargain of skin and bone.
…The moon
always seems to know something I don’t.
…It’s lovely,
every once in a while, to run across that sweet forgotten place.
…I grew up in
an anorexic home. I’d say no. I’d say, No thanks, No way. But what I was always saying, really behind
those words? One thing: Love me,
motherfuckers.
…The house I
grew up in seemed like one big scar.
…Now we’re too
far past the moment for me to backtrack.
…I’ll let you
call the shots. You’re better at that
than me.
…I heard a lot
of serious words growing up. Some of
them carried knives. I could put myself
between the fights if I held my breath long enough.
…I’m practicing
saying Yes. Apparently it’s the right
thing to do.
…I checked the
To Do list but that’s all it said.
…Snow is a
little like an anorexic’s ice cream.
…I could hear
my mother’s voice in her handwriting, in the way the walls stared at me when
she would light up.
…Maybe there’s
a time up ahead, or there was a time, or there is this time right now when
you’re in a place with too many people, it’s sweating-hot and you don’t know
any of them and mostly you feel lost because everyone seems to know each other.
…When you’re
alone you’re invisible. You’re figuring
out how life works.
…Mostly anger
is unfamiliar territory for me.
…Instead of
putting pressure on your brain, hold a cold beer to it.
…Most people
are better at me in the art of looking at a problem and tracking backward,
analyzing the smallest pieces to find out where things went wrong.
…Whatever was
going on with that guy, nobody told me.
Nobody asked my opinion.
…We don’t know how
this will turn out, do we?
I can't figure out which one of these I relate to most, but all of them are eerily familiar and ring of truth. Love.
ReplyDeleteSweet, Jayne. Thanks so much for reading my scribbles. I'm grateful. Here's wishing you a wonderful Holiday Season.
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