--HEY, STRANGER
…Happy Monday.
It's a blustery day here.
Blustery always makes me think of Winnie the Pooh.
I hope you have an incredible week.
…I got a very nice and personal rejection on a submission the other
day. The editor said I was "this
and miss" with him, but "more hit than miss." He said he really like the story below that
was published in Free Range Magazine:
Punctured
In the umbra of her resolve, I
watched Mother stick pin after pin into her skin.
It
scared the life out of me. I tried not
to vomit or shriek or cry.
Her entire left arm was
covered. In between the silver sheen, a
few spooky streaks of red ran down the underside of her elbow, dripping
splotches on the floor.
Out
of pins, she flipped her head like a panther’s tail and said, “Go get
more. There’s a big tin in the pantry.”
I obeyed. To do differently would have produced
disastrous results.
She immediately went to work on her
foot, calf, the thigh area where she had bunched up her baby blue bathrobe, the
ratty one with a cartoon duck pattern.
“Does it hurt?” I asked.
“What do you think?” she asked back,
though it wasn’t really a question.
Young as I was, I had already learned that any question could be
answered with one of its own by simply adding a slate-black stare.
Mother
pushed hundreds of pins into her skin.
It took the better part of the afternoon.
At one point, she removed her
robe. She said, “You’ll need to finish
the rest.”
I didn’t want to look at her private
places, didn’t want to stick pins in her, didn’t want to breathe or even live
any more. Nine years was a long life for
many creatures. I was elderly by
comparison.
“I won’t do it,” I said.
Her eyes spun. “You will.”
And so I took the first pin. “How hard?”
“Do you really think it matters?”
I jabbed her hard, drawing a crimson
pimple. She did not yelp or flinch or
even inhale.
I poked dozens and dozens of pins
into her pale skin. I covered her
breasts and stomach and stuck them across her buttocks and through her
meandering pubic hair.
When I was finally done, she told me
to go to sleep. She said she would take
it from here.
I sauntered up the stairs. She watched me, or so I thought, catching
glimmers of eye whites glinting around the silver.
I
closed my door hard, then softly reopened it.
I tiptoed to the edge of landing and knelt down, looking through the
slats of the bannister, waiting, same as her.
After several hours, he pulled into
the drive.
I
watched my father through the window. He
was wearing a mid-weight herringbone suit with a soft pink shirt and a tie that
looked like the belly of a fish. His
shoes were butterscotch, “Salesman Brown.”
My father, the tailor, had already taught me much about textiles and
weaves, thread count and fashion. He’d
taught me, too, how to dismantle a family.
He’d taught me about suffering and—via mother’s self-inflicted
torture--just how much pain the human heart can bear.
When he opened the door, he found my
mother’s arms outstretched. She
resembled a silver crucifix.
“Take one,” she said, “As many as
you like,” she said. “One for every last
lie.”
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