--I BET YOU CAN TELL I’M HAVING A LOT OF DIFFICULTY
…Yesterday, three deer sauntered out onto the front
lawn and traipsed around in the edge of the lake. They hung around for quite a while, so serene
and aware. It was a beautiful
sight. I wish you could have seen them.
…In a way, choosing the people we want in our life is the
closest we ever come to controlling our own destiny.
…How do you measure a year in the life? I listened to the Rent soundtrack while
running on the treadmill. Hadn’t heard
it in a while. Rent and Les Miserables
always give me chills.
…I didn’t know what to do with it—hide it, store it,
run from it, let it slice me some more—so I put all that pain into my writing.
…You’re always going to fly away, because you can. That’s what the other birds told me.
…I feel the pains of my father in my soul, and the sins
of my mother who will not let me go.
…There’s a lot more to the ending of a story besides
the ending of a story. And sometimes the
story doesn’t ever actually end.
…Being a parent, or a lover, means you have to set
yourself aside, and that’s how it should be.
…It’s possible to feel very scared and safe all at the
same time. When I realized that, is when
I stopped hating the people who were supposed to love me, but didn’t.
…That’s the story of my life—always searching for what
is truly right.
…I don’t want to be the reason for your sadness, and
so I stay here, silent, while you’re there, living.
…Maybe we should bask in the glory of our
problems. Jump in the bird bath of all
our difficulties and splash around, get each other soaking wet.
…Some people play for the power. Some people live for the fortune.
…This is how we stay alive, I said to the dog. We stay together. We remind each other to breathe.
…I listened to my ear this morning and it said, “You
are really something else. Go for it.”
…I will go down bleeding if that’s what it takes to
make you see me as I really am.
…I won’t say a word.
They’ve all been said before.
Instead, I’ll touch you there. I’ll
write everything with an inaudible whisper on your back until your skin puckers
and your pulse races. And what’s weird
about all this is it has nothing to do with sex.
…And all I remember is your back, what it looked like
as you walked out that door.
…But in your dreams, whatever they may be, dream a
little dream of me.
…Please take the words away. Carry them to someone in need of a song.
…Don’t worry about me, I’ve just got a little sand in
my eyes is all, but I’ll take that hug now.
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