—I WISH YOU’D CAUGHT ME ON A DIFFERENT DAY, WHEN IT WAS EASIER TO BE HAPPY

the widow

crushes a black veil

the lace as frail and

vulnerable as a

an orchid or 

orphaned child

the widow, she

paints a blind stare

over each sky-ed eye and

advices me to never to

kiss too intently

swallow my tongue and

any meandering spittle

eradicate the friction,

the widow says

abolish unnecessary bliss

ensure the mattress is

less than sturdy

borrowed and broken

entirely uncomfortable

every bulb burnt out

the chested organs pardoned

aloof and unfocused

but before that, the widow says

spoon honey from a jar

use your old fingers

and lap slowly

like a dog or goat

notice how it can smell

fresh as grass

perhaps floral fruity

or smoky

have a good look around

surveil the second

hand hammering

hammering the seconds

next, the widow says

chew on the viscous glass

as if you’re famished

hear your teeth

grind and crack

open your throat like

a funnel

wash it all down with

optimistic vigor

equal parts spent saliva

and blood

—WELL, THIS IS WHAT IT LOOK LIKE RIGHT BEFORE YOU FALL

                                                            left

      i’m floating again in a foul pond filled with too many iou’s i owe myself wishing schadenfreude upon myself/my doppelgänger-self hoping my papier-mâché heart won’t pop it feels like seeping/sneaking through the shallow unabridged/unannounced sucking sludge between my teeth feeling bloated heavy and light as nothing how’s that work nothing’s really working right now if i’m being honest how come i can’t reach the shore or door handle when your teeth are so white i can see them from the bottom more dirty rain is dropping/slapping my sallow cheeks it’s a dicey forecast snow falling now an avalanche coming running like a herd of wild of stallions crushing every scrawny bone in my hollow chest

—FELL DOWN LAST WEEK AND COULDN’T PICK MYSELF UP

…Hey Friday, you look swell, covered in snow.

…Here’s a piece I wrote for the fabulous Ghost Parachute:

http://ghostparachute.com/the-thing-about-getting-older/?fbclid=IwAR1UrUWUgQibs9I8tIn1GzR8RaDuYJy6V8ITSG-lni3H6NEvxRrFFEwpbt4

...I hope you're doing fine. I hope you're good. I hope you're better than good. Here are some things I like for the weekend that you might as well:

-"What we encounter in art is presence. Every time we encounter a poem, we encounter a version of a self. Sometimes the self we encounter is vapid and tinny, jejune. There are poems where the presence is more complete and poems where the presence is not as complete. What troubles me are the ethical implications of projecting into the world an "I" that is less than the best of who we are, a presence that may even be toxic in one way or another." Li Young-lee

One day you will ask me

what is more important?

My life or yours? 

I will say mine and you

will walk away not knowing

that you are my life. –Khalil Gibran

https://nedhardy-com.cdn.ampproject.org/c/nedhardy.com/2019/06/17/doctor-ask-terminally-ill-kids-what-really-matters-in-life-here-are-their-answers/amp/?fbclid=IwAR1YfNaZsZgo5EKWBaYFDr2XVqgkqmkVoJc5pSZcXuDOjRgXbFKmyIcYaUg#

Things You Do Not Have to Do This Year—

Explain why you love who you love
Explain your pronouns
Explain your dark poems 
Explain your tattoos or piercings 
Explain your break-up, marriage, relationship status
Explain why you don’t have kids
Explain why you are vegan, vegetarian, gluten-free, etc. 
Explain your job/no job situation 
Eat the green jello salad

-Steve Gouves dies a billionaire, with a fortune of $ 7 billion, at the age of 56 from pancreatic cancer, and here are some of his last words:

In other eyes, my life is the essence of success, but aside from work, I have a little joy, and in the end wealth is just a fact of life to which I am accustomed.

At this moment, lying on the bed, sick and remembering all my life, I realize that all my recognition and wealth that I have is meaningless in the face of imminent death.

You can hire someone to drive a car for you, make money for you - but you cannot rent someone to carry the disease for you. One can find material things, but there is one thing that cannot be found when it is lost - "life".

Treat yourself well, and cherish others. As we get older we are smarter, and we slowly realize that the watch is worth $ 30 or $ 300 - both of which show the same time.

Whether we carry a purse worth $ 30 or $ 300 - the amount of money in the wallets are the same. Whether we drive a car worth $ 150,000, or a car worth $ 30,000 - the road and distance are the same, we reach the same destination.
If we drink a bottle worth $ 300 or wine worth $ 10 - the "stroller" will be the same.

If the house we live in is 300 square meters, or 3000 square meters - the loneliness is the same.
Your true inner happiness does not come from the material things of this world. Whether you're flying first class, or economy class - if the plane crashes, you crash with it.

So, I hope you understand that when you have friends or someone to talk to - this is true happiness!

Five Undeniable Facts-

1. Do not educate your children to be rich. Educate them to be happy. - So when they grow up they will know the value of things, not the price.

2. Eat your food as medicine, otherwise you will need to eat your medicine as food.

3. Whoever loves you will never leave you, even if he has 100 reasons to give up. He will always find one reason to hold on.

4. There is a big difference between being human and human being.

5. If you want to go fast - go alone! But if you want to go far - go together!

And in conclusion,
The six best doctors in the world.
1. Sunlight
2. Rest
3. Exercise
4. Diet
5. Self-confidence
6. Friends

Keep them in all stages of life and enjoy a healthy life.

"Love the people God sent you, one day he'll need them back."