—I BET YOU’RE
PROBABLY THINKING THAT IT’S CRAZY THAT I REMEMBER EVERY LITTLE DETAIL, BUT I DO.
…Sometimes it
doesn’t seem like much when it’s more than anyone could really comprehend.
…I built my
life out of what was left of me, on a map of an old horizon.
…God thinks you’re
wonderful. He sends you flowers every
spring and a sunrise every morning.
…The moon sings
to me its familiar song. I’ve almost got
it memorized.
…It would be
wonderful to beat time. Sometimes I
think I kind of do.
…Loving people,
and telling them you do--while you can--that’s what’s most important.
…I’ve got no
problem with pink. Or blue, for that
matter.
…My whole
career, I’ve been a hired hand. That’s actually
not too shabby.
…“If you don’t
have the gun, we ain’t talking.”
...I can get a
little bull-headed when I want something really bad.
…We all want
something beautiful. Man, I wish I was
beautiful.
…We all get
lost sometimes. It’s how we cope, and
how we grow from that which matters.
…I fail and I
fail, but then I get up, and I keep at it.
…What matters
is figuring out what matters most, and, well, that’s not always so easy.
…Sometimes it’s
best to admit you’re a silly boy. Silly
isn’t that bad, after all.
…I’m not that
good at a lot of things that men are supposed to be good at. My only tools are screwdrivers and
hammers. I still don’t know what a carburetor
is. Or an alternator. Or a timing belt. But I do like the sound of timing belt. It could make for a good title, or a line in
a poem.
…A vivid memory
I have is getting drunk off of Jack Daniel’s when I was nine years old. I danced a jig, or something like that, in
front of corn rows, as well as my mother and the foreman she was having a fling
with. I’m pretty sure I was pretty
embarrassing. I’m pretty sure it was pretty
tragic in all sorts of ways.
…The truth is,
eventually, we run out of space. It’s
preordained.
…If it’s yours,
you should take it, right?
…I never feel
like I have enough authority to answer all the questions I’m asked. Makes me look like I’m copping out, but I’m
actually not. I’m just waiting for
permission when I probably shouldn’t be.
…As you
probably know, I started picking fruit in summers, when I was nine. It was a cash money gig. Mom drove us at 4:30 am in the Plymouth
station wagon. You started picking early
because, by noon or so, the temperatures would rise so high the fruit would split
and smoosh if you picked any later. Even
back then, Mom deducted the cost of gas out of our earnings each day. That taught me quite a few things.
…We placed our
berry-stained bills in an envelope where my mother studiously added sums on the
back flap. I remember watching with
delight as summer neared to a close and that envelope swelled with singles and
fives.
…One late
summer, for some odd reason, or because my brothers were doing it, I signed up
for football training. It cost $110,
which was a fortune back then. I recall
handing the coach a stack of berry-stained bills. He just smiled. It took me a while to understand why.
…I am my own
accomplice, aiding and abetting all the way.
…Sometimes,
late at night, I can hear myself tell myself that I’m almost ready.
…“I’ve got two
tickets to paradise.” Not a lot of
people can say that, but Eddie Money can.
…Time makes you
bolder... Not always, but it sounds good
enough in a song.
…Guns, pills
and money. What could go wrong there?
…It’s dangerous
to speak and sigh.
…When you’re up
this late it can be problematic, and yet the body is an
amazing machine.
…You wanna talk
about that guy? Don’t get me started.
…When you’re a
father, you have a front row seat to see wonder.
…Nobody I know
likes patience, yet it’s more or less required most of the time.
…My best friend,
not my father, taught me how to shave while we were in college. It was gruesome. I didn’t understand levity. I pressed too hard (symbolism). My whole face was a bloody mess afterward. The second time, I was a lot better. I let the blade glide.
…I’m pretty
certain that the worst thing to happen to me hasn’t happened yet, and I’m
grateful and a bit scared at the same time.
…Shouldn’t we
all just be cremated? I mean, let’s save
some land.
…Jupiter has 67
moons. Sixty-seven. We have one, and yet I’m entirely enamored
with it.
…A lot gets
said in a hot tub. The key is to listen
carefully and read between the lines.
…Vices are
merely crutches, but that doesn’t mean we don’t need them, that we don’t enjoy
them.
…Do you every
wonder why you’re spending time reading these nonsensical scribbles? You should.
I know I do.
…Maybe I’m not
a broken toy after all. Maybe I just
have something different to offer.
…I’m going to
be up a while, so you might want to hit the hay.
…Don’t give up
on me just yet.
…Whoa. What time is it?
…Here comes the
sun.
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