—YOU BETTER BE LIGHTNING

 

 

https://www.bloodhoneylit.com/poetry/kuntz-two-poems

 

…There is only so much love can do.

 

…It’s like a miracle when a miracle happens.

 

…Sometimes it just feels good to have a cry.

 

…Apparently, I couldn’t get aligned properly.

 

…Some things are never easy to admit.

 

…“When you are dying, at least in my limited experience, you start remembering everything.” Tatiana Scholssberg.

 

…So why was that a good idea?

 

…The closer I got, the farther it pushed me away.

 

…I’ve seen things that just aren’t there.

 

…Spent a lot of lonely nights trying to stitch my scars.

 

…You don’t forget certain moments.

 

...The thing you always have to remind yourself of is---you never know.

 

…Just give me someone I can trust, and I’ll be with you until the end.

 

…911, what your emergency?

 

…I might be experiencing technical difficulty.

 

…I think God must be trying to tell me something.

 

…I keep thinking there’s a dog nearby, who’s going to jump up when I get up, but there isn’t one.

 

…Sometimes I get too angry at myself, by myself, and so it goes nowhere.

 

…Wow, well, that was a day.

 

…That’s probably all I wanted, though I wanted more.

 

...What’s the point of my life at this point?

 

…Whole lot of woulda, coulda, shouda can’t help me now.

 

…It’s a pretty brutal existence, just waiting for a reply, but it’s better than waiting for death.

 

…Believe it or not, that’s what I meant.

 

…Nobody could tell me, I had to find out for myself. 

 

…Oy yeah, we got that down. Verbatim.

 

…I wonder what you were like then.

 

...Dreams are never really gone if someone’s dreaming with you.

 

…It’s always difficult when the example doesn’t work.

 

…Throw me a rope, Somebody, please?

 

…If you’re actually texting people at 4am, and they’re texting you back, that something special. 

 

…This doesn’t exactly feel right, but it feels necessary. 

 

…I think I have to stop manifesting things.

 

.,,,Even when I’m weak, I’m still going to try to win.

 

…I hate reading through my junk mail, (who doesn’t?  or who does?) but when you’re a writer, it’s kind or paramount.  

 

…You can just drop that off right there, thank you.

 

…Is that all you want to take from me?

 

…What’s wrong with this picture?

 

…Subtly is pretty important.

 

…I guess I just don’t want to be one of those people who is totally full of shit, where everyone knows it but me.

 

…Yeah, but there’s nobody there.

 

…Why am I even in this picture?

 

…You’re out there living your best life (yay) and I’m here about to live my next and last life.

 

…There’s really something wonderful about being awake at 3am when no one else is. It’s one of those things you’d have to experience to understand.

 

…Is that a good question? Because I think it was a good question.

 

…Should you, or I be concerned right now? 

 

…Yeah, I know. I’ve seen this movie before as well.

 

…You can’t second-guess a second-guess, can you?

 

…I’ll double-check, but I’m pretty sure nothing’s changed.

 

…How many times can you say, “I give” before it’s the last one?

 

…It’s only funny if you think it is.

 

…This is stupid. I mean, isn’t this stupid?

 

…Fruit was something we didn’t eat when I was a kid, unless you were out in the fields picking it. I recall stuffing my mouth with gobs of pie cherries that were probably sprayed with all kinds of toxic things, because they tasted so bitter, but there they were, in my mouth. 

 

…Don’t make it a thing: Love who you love, and everyone else can Fuck off.

 

…How is this even going to work?

 

…I keep saying last time twenty-five times. Do other people do that? I have no idea.

 

…Of course, I always wanted to be popular, because I was anything but, but then I was popular and now that’s one of the least priorities in my life, so long as the people I love know how much I love them. If that’s popular, I’ll take, if not, I’m good.

 

… "In the end, everyone is aware of this: nobody keeps any of what he has, and life is only a borrowing of bones." Pablo Neruda 

 

…I no longer correct my typos in texts. I hate them, but they’re a part of the deal, especially, with hypertext.

 

…In the meantime, what happened to you that was really important? 

 

…That cannot be that, can it?

 

…Memory is so important, but it’s faulty. Some of those things happened just like that, just like you remembered them, but some didn’t at all.

 

…One of the great joys of life is discovering new music, a new artist.

 

…“I wake up some mornings and have my coffee and look at my beautiful garden and I go, ‘Remember how good this is, because you can lose it’.” Jim Carrey