—COUNT THE HEADLIGHTS ON HIGHWAY
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—AS FOR NOW, WE’RE GOING TO HEAR THE SADDEST SONGS, AND SIT AROUND AND WONDER
Detonated
I haven’t yet
learned to live
outside of my skull
in the dark sunshine
with those unreliable
mirrors wearing bulbs
so bleak it makes God weep
the days like infected stitches
taut across a seeping wound
the hoodlum nights itching
for a fight and fatality
You left before the moon
had a chance to sing and
now a million acres of time
sits on my lap like a
detonated bomb
while all I do is remember
you looking up from the carpet
just begging to be held
—LIVING IN THE PAST DOESN’T CHANGE A THING
Alone
at
The Soho
Grand
I took the
rain taxi
that day
floated over
flooded streets
and gutters
made it
on time
with one
shake to spare
while the
wind cuffed
you to a curb
before throwing
you onto the
Lower East Side
near the Bowery
and Canal
why that truck
was there
when it was
is something
I think about
every solitary day
but that night
at The Soho
Grand all
I did was
curse you
for being late
then for
not calling
then for
not showing
then finally
for never again
being able
to say
Hi Handsome
what took you
so long?
—OH MY GOD HOW I PRAY, I PRAY EVERY SINGLE DAY
…Sometimes, no matter where you look, or how closely you look. the luggage just doesn’t show up.
…When your friends suffer, you suffer. There’s just no way around it.
...Love is love, and there’s no way around that, either.
…What I’d really appreciate is a lighter shade of gray.
…“Death is so unfair.” Dan Cafaro
…“Joan was, undoubtedly, a genius, but it isn’t enough to be a genius. You must also be lucky: right place, right time.” RV on Joan Didion
…Sometimes, though, a costume change is all it takes.
…I might not ever have what you need, which is why I am where I am, and why you are where you are.
…On a positive note, I closed all my rings, every day, this last week.
…Pomeranian? Maybe.
…"It is very important to go out alone, to sit under a tree—not with a book, not with a companion, but by yourself—and observe the falling of a leaf, hear the lapping of the water, the fishermen’s song, watch the flight of a bird, and of your own thoughts as they chase each other across the space of your mind. If you are able to be alone and watch these things, then you will discover extraordinary riches which no government can tax, no human agency can corrupt, and which can never be destroyed." Jiddu Krishnamurti
…It’s really be nice to smell a lemon. Or cabbage. Or anything.
…I think it takes an amazing amount of courage to check yourself into rehab. I think it’s the farthest thing from weakness that there is.
…I’ve said it before, but once more: When you really need a friend, is when you find out who your friends are.
…The sun’s been knocking me around lately, and I already have bad balance.
…You’re something else. I hope you know that.
…George Clooney, he’s the celebrity I’d most like to have a beer with.
…“Why Bother? Because right now, there is someone out there with a wound in the exact shape of your words.” –Sean Thomas Dougherty
…It’s been a month, hasn’t it?
…When I was young and journaled, all I talked/wrote about was the weather. Now it’s all just gloom.
…“I’m learning so many different ways to be quiet. There’s how I stand in the lawn, that’s one way. There’s also how I stand in the field across from the street, that’s another way because I’m farther from people and therefore more likely to be alone. There’s how I don’t answer the phone, and how I sometimes like to lie down on the floor in the kitchen and pretend I’m not home when people knock. There’s daytime silent where I stare, and a nighttime silent when I do things. There’s shower silent and bath silent and California silent and Kentucky silent and car silent and then there’s the silence that comes back, a million times bigger than me, sneaks into my bones and wails and wails and wails until I can’t be quiet anymore. That’s how this machine works.”
― Ada Limon
…I wish I could stop looking, but that doesn’t seem possible.
…I don’t think you want me lying to you, do you?
…Do I have issues? Sure, but don’t we all, if we’re being honest?
…I think not having issues is like going through life as a mannequin, plastic and unmoving.
…“I’m one of those creatures that speaks through art. I just want to always make. If I’m not making, I’m dying in some way.” Brad Pitt
…“You get quiet and you get creative. Busyness is the enemy of creativity.” Rene Zellwegger
…“We’re all going through something, so we might as well go through it together.” Ramona Klein
…“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love.” Chloe Lattanzi
…But, hey, the sun is shining. Tomorrow the beaver’s going to swim eastward, and the eagle is going to soar by with his sharp eye on the water. There’s so much to feel grateful for.
…But anyway, how are you doing okay? I was just wondering.
—I AM SEEING IN ME NOW, THE THINGS YOU SWORE YOU SAW YOURSELF
Formosa
We left
New York
for a
constipated
lane that
never ends
two tickets
to a runway
gun show
and a furnace
pinched too tight
If it was fame
you wanted
you could have
shot the mayor
Everyone has
their reasons
you say
and they say
we’re foreigners
destined to get
lost once we
realize where
we’ve landed
