Thursday, April 12, 2012


--THAT FELT LIKE A MISTAKE


…It’s very early Thursday, around 3:30 am.
In a few hours I’ll be on a plane headed to my favorite city in the world, New York.
If you’re near there on Sunday at 7 pm, come to Jimmy’s 43 at 43 East 7th Street and hear me read. Also reading will be Julie Innis, Myfanwy Collins, Jurgen Fauth, Sheldon Compton, and Robb Todd.
I’m very excited. I’m not really nervous.
Not yet anyway.

…Here are some things we should ponder at least for a moment:

…Global warming, or coincidence?
For the quarter--Jan through March-- the US temperate was 42 degrees Fahrenheit, or a whopping six degrees higher than the long term average.
During that time, 15,800 different warm temperature records were recorded.
At least nine of the snowiest U.S. cities had less than 60% of their average snowfall this year.

The C.E.O. of Viacom made $43,077,942 last year
The C.E.O. of Honeywell made on $35 Million
And the CEO of Disney made a mere $31 Million

72 police officers were killed in 2011, a 25% increase from the year before, and a 75% increase from 2008

US Population
In 1940: 132.2 Million
In 2010: 308.7 Million
Percentage with bachelor degree
1940: 5%
2010: 28%
What women earn for every dollar a man earns:
1940: 62 cents per dollar
2010: 74 centers per dollar
Median home value (adjusted for inflation)
1940: $38,700
2010: $179,000
Women and Men who've never married:
1940: 43.9% Men, 28.9 Women
2010: 65.6% Men, 55.6% Women
Homes heated with coal/wood:
1940: 78%
2010: 2%

Which city has the best pizza?
41% -- NY
39% -- Chicago
9% -- New Haven
5% -- San Francisco

70% -- Percentage of prisoners granted parole if they had morning hearings.
10% -- Percentage granted parole if they had afternoon hearing.

When you consider some of the decisions you've made in the past that might come to light, do you think you could run for public office?
No --62% All
No --58% Men
No --66% Women

2/3rd's of a shark's brain is programmed to process smell

Tuesday, April 10, 2012


--DIDJA LIKE THAT? DIDJA LIKE THAT? DIDJA LIKE THAT?


…Today a fortuitous email ended up in my "Junk" mail folder that said:

"This is the Most Effective And Safest Way To Enlarge Your Manhood. Get Incredible Gains Even While You SLEEP! Gains Of 3-4 Inches Are Not Uncommonm, Try for yourself Risk Free 100% Guaranteed to Work!!"
(Yes, they misspelled “Uncommon.”)
Most of the time I win the Netherlands Lotto or else PayPal tells me my account has been recently used by nefarious sources and that I need to immediately resend all my personal information (Social Security number included) in order to rectify the problem. Do people really do that?

…Here’s another that just showed up:

Subject: Verfication From the FBI
Att:
This message is regarding the verification about the prize you won from sweepstakes. Get back to us.

Special Agent Brian Lamkin
Federal Bureau of Investigation
(They misspelled “Verification.” Which leads me to believe crooks aren’t very bright.)

…The other day I got a rejection on a piece I sent out on February 9th, 2010. That’s two thousand TEN. Almost two years ago from today. Mind you, this wasn’t The New Yorker or Atlantic Monthly but just a very small online literary journal.
I guess the upside is, they did at least respond. Better that than nothing.

…It’s a little sad, for some reason, that when you type in “letter of…” on Google you get the cue “Letter of resignation” versus “Letter of recommendation,” which is what I was looking for.

…Sometimes I wonder things that other people would likely think are random or strange.
For instance, I often wonder who gets to name a town, or the city streets in a town.
I wonder who gets to decide what is a swear word and what isn’t.
Why, for example, is Fuck a bad word, but Copulate acceptable?
Why is Shit dirty and not defecate?
Dick not Penis?
And so on…

…Here are some things I like:

"Each one of us is wounded. It's just that some wounds are on the inside instead of the outside." SK

"The end is where we start from.” T.S. Eliot

"I never know how much of what I say is true." Bette Midler

"A good meal ought to begin with hunger." French Proverb

"Treat a work of art like a prince: let it speak to you first." Arthur Schopenhauer

Monday, April 9, 2012


--I SEE BETTER WHEN I DREAM


...Here are two older poems that appeared in an online literary journal out of Mexico City called Ofi Press:


Pedestrians

Nobody sings.
We feel our way through dark clouds and cracks.
I remember you wanted to love me.
Those were full days,
cherry nickels.
When your Toyota backfired,
we bawled from laughter.

Now the western winds are spreading
wild fires
and we are confused pedestrians,
weary from walking the same space,
treading foul air,
disobeying every road sign
on our way to ruin.



Reunion

We take the photo in the same place each year,
by the grand fountain,
same positions,
shortest to tall
as if there’s nothing else to mark the time
but our slacking skins
and a different set of sweaters.

We are his daughters.
We sang sweet notes and invented excuses for being women
instead of ladies.
Nights we fought in silence with locked doors
and shattered mirrors.
“No one got hurt,” we’d always say.
A lawyer, a lesbian, a surgeon and one hack.

The photographer prompts, “On three, say…Father!”
and we do
because Mom’s asked us,
because she’s standing there
remembering him again,
loving Dad like we should have.

Saturday, April 7, 2012


----I AM TRYING TO PAY ATTENTION


…This was in the local paper. I found it bizarrely interesting.

"Looking for a sugar daddy? It might help to strategize. And it might help to look in Seattle.
Apparently, the city is one of the top cities in the country with the best chance of finding a daddy. And it has some of the most generous daddies nationwide.”

That’s according to "Seeking Arrangement", a dating site that matches daddies with “babies,” which released a ranking Wednesday of cities with the highest number of daddies per guys. The average daddy is 39 years old, makes $263,500 a year, is worth $5.6 million and spends $4,300 a month on a baby, says the site. (Numbers are based on self-reporting).

…Another interesting story involves Don Sammons, who is auctioning off the town of Buford, Wyoming, population 1.
Don is the only resident of Buford, which had 10 acres of land, including a post office, gas station and sign declaring it was incorporated in the year 1866.
Minimum bid for Buford, WY starts at $100,000.

…Maybe I should buy the town. I keep winning lotteries. I think I've hit the Netherlands jackpot at least twelve times this year already. And I won some in France, too. Or so the messages say. And I've been getting emails from Iraqis, Chinese, Bulgarians and sweet-sounding Christian ladies who all find me "incredibly trustworthy" and want me to partner with them buy "giving me" $15 million or so.
Isn't that so nice of all these people?

…Speaking of money and the Chinese, that country now has 960,000 millionaires. Really?

…35 million Americans suffer from mold and pollen allergies. I am one of them.

…I like these things on the weekend:

"Pretending not to love you was the hardest thing I've ever done." Ezra

"I prefer a thief who knows he is a thief." Maree Scarlett

"The Swedish word for crying and masturbating simultaneously is gråtrunka." Kirsty Logan

"We must take the risk of creating ourselves and get to know and like ourselves--this strange and wonderful creature."

Thursday, April 5, 2012


--SHUT UP/LOOK PRETTY


Readers of flash fiction are in debt to whoever imagined the literary smorgasbord that is “Shut Up/Look Pretty”—select writings by Lauren Becker, Kirsty Logan, Erin Fitzgerald, Michelle Reale and Amber Sparks.

In the collection, we meet the Navy Seals of female short fiction—five of today’s sharpest Indie writers. Never mind issues of gender. That they are women only matters because their writing decimates. They scale walls and leap off skyscrapers. People get hurt and saved, knocked down, let down, expunged, reincarnated, maimed, mimicked, celebrated and, of course, loved.

Each author takes roughly 60 pages to lay traps, imprison people, splay their pain, thus culminating in a generous book that logs in at 300 pages—rare in today’s envelope-thin story collections.

The assembled works are at once both a charm bracelet and a cluster bomb, requiring individual attention. To be sure, each author brings their own distinct voice with them, yet as a whole, the book blends together the way standalone hues also accent the greater image in a painting.

Lauren Becker’s writing reads like classical music, symphonic and precise, building with undertones of intensity towards a sharp crescendo. She uses alliteration and a clever, urgent cadence, sticking every ending with a line so poetic and thoughtful that one pauses, almost reverentially. “Even as I talk you out of me, I am doing the same.” She writes about being second-guessed, passed over, trampled and used. We want to know who these lovers and hypocrites are. She makes us mandate that these louts explain why they behave so selfishly, even while feeling a twinge of guilt ourselves for their similarity to our own lives. More than once, Becker injects surprises into her writing, as in a sister being ejected from her brother’s wedding at the demand of the bride.

Erin Fitzgerald has a sharp, often dark, wit. Her characters are the life of the party even when they’re not, as in a wonderful piece that is comprised entirely of brief letters sent to cell mate 2409756, who just happens to be Lindsay Lohan:

“Lindsay:
If I ever move away, which seems likely, I am taking a chunk of my driveway with me. It’s what holds me up when I say goodbye to the people I love, and I never see them again.
Erin”

“Hi Linds:
Keep remembering that yesterday was a good day.
Erin”

“Dear Lindsay:
Scavenging ensures we remember more than we forget.
I’m just saying, Erin”

“Hey:
The paint on the walls probably doesn’t have lead in it. Go ahead and chip at it.
E”

Not a piece disappoints.

Kirsty Logan’s sections are all ribs belonging to the same lung, to the same messed up bards and lasses who are having one hell of a time not only getting sober, but making something of their lives. The cast of these interlocking stories are all connected by the Scottish band Black Brick. We’re introduced to characters as uniquely drawn as their names: Tibor and Francis Faskally, to name a couple. Her stories are “This is Spinal Tap” meets “High Fidelity” meets a whole lot of sex and drugs and drinking. Hey, it’s only Rock n’ Roll, and it’s a blast.

Michelle Reale takes you out at the knees. Sometimes her pieces kick you in the scrotum (if you have one.) But mostly Reale’s writing is gorgeous, spare when it needs to be, lush when the ambiance requires it. Often her pieces are open-ended, as if you’re being dropped through a suddenly sprung trap door, allowing you to come to your own conclusion about how you got where you are and how. Other times she slams the door in your face without apology. Her stories soar, sway and dip into the dark crevices of dysfunctional relationships, usually helmed by a domineering mother figure that very well may resembled our own, or another mother we know well.

Amber Sparks is fascinated with death, or rather death’s hold over us. Her creepy ghost story that opens “A Great Dark Sleep” is about far more than ghosts. We are forced to tangle with questions of guilt and conscience. We want to protect the orphaned little girl, who like the boy in “The Sixth Sense” is kept captive by flocks of interloping specters that have stolen and manipulated her father’s heart. In other stories a wife kills a husband who then turns into an angel and we get the gory pleasure of watching a man’s death and decay from a front row seat.

Ultimately, “Shut Up/Look Pretty” is so flush with radiant story-telling that upon conclusion the reader is actually left a little winded, though immensely satisfied.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012


--NOW YOU'RE JUST SOMEBODY THAT I USED TO KNOW


…"I don't want to make money. I just want to be wonderful." Marilyn Monroe

…I read this article.
I liked it.
Here it is (condensed) from Larry Feign in Writer Magazine:

--HOW TO HANDLE PEOPLE WHO TELL YOU NOT TO BE A WRITER:
1. Don't Argue (they're ignorant)
2. Pity Them (remember, they're ignorant)
3. Ask Them For Money (when they say you'll starve)
4. Refuse Their Money
5. Frighten Them (say something like, "What if I become a doctor and end up operating on you?")
6. Change The Subject (they won't notice)
7. Offer Them A Role (in your novel, story, screenplay)
8. Flee
9. Use Your Rage to Write
10. Laugh
--Larry Feign, Writer Magazine

…I run. Not as much as I used to, but I still do.
And I get "Runner's World" magazine, not because there's anything new to learn about the sport, but mainly to keep inspired so that I don't slack off and get lazy.
In the latest issue there's a small article about Keith Wood, now 83, who will be the oldest runner in this year's Boston Marathon. He ran his qualifying time in 4:29, just a few minutes slower than I ran my last race. And Keith only ran his first marathon at age 72 and has since covered the distance nearly 40 times.
There's hope for all of us.

…Apparently the average household credit card balance in America is $16,000. Really? Holy hell.

…In yesterday's USA Today they asked: Is it ok to cheat on your income taxes?
85%--Not at all
8% --As much as possible
6% --A little
3% --Don't know

…You have to sell 5-7,000 books in a week to make it on The NY Times Bestseller List top 10
2-3 million to be a Bestseller
"The Help" has sold 10 M

…I like these:

-"How can it be a conspiracy if everyone's in on it?" Anon

-"Every word is guilty until proven innocent." Kira Peikoff

-"I wanted beyond hope or dreaming to be a writer." Sophie's Choice, William Styron

-"Novel writing is like living in an airless, depressing marriage to the same ugly person for years." Russel Banks

Sunday, April 1, 2012


--WE WERE GREAT LAST SUMMER


…I've been watching "Weeds" the last few weeks, zipping through the seasons.
At first I was not taken with the show. It seemed too kitschy, a little too "Desperate Housewives."
I've definitely changed my mind.
Mary-Louise Parker's character has to be the quirkiest I've ever seen in a television show.
That's her up there in the photo, if you didn't know it.
I've sort of got a crush on her.
I know, I know--that's a sexy picture.
There were sexier photos, but I liked this one.
If you want a good laugh, watch "Weeds." I laugh pretty hard at least once every episode, plus they throw in some things you don't see coming.

…(I was going to use another word for "laugh" in the last sentence above, because repeating the same word is a pet peeve of mine when I see other writers do it. Seems lazy. But my other options--"guffaw," "chortle" and even "chuckle" just didn’t fit.)

…I'm listening to Pete Yorn at this moment. His old stuff. It's good. I wonder what Pete is doing right now.

…When I read something really good, I like to send the author a note and tell them how much their work moved me. About 65% of the time, I get a note back. It's the other 35% that sort of floors me.
I finished reading Black Fox Literary Magazine. There were some great pieces and photos in it. I wanted to send notes but couldn't figure out who they were on Facebook. That should be easier, or maybe writers/photographers shouldn't be so restrictive about their FB pages.

…At this writing no one has won the Mega Millions lottery. It's at $640 Million.
Here are some interesting facts related to this:
--You are 176 times more likely to be hit by lightning than win
--You are 3.8 times more likely to be killed by fireworks than win
--And 9 times more likely to face death from a TV that falls on your head.
--It would take 12,800 years for the average American household to earn $640 Million
--The US government spends that same amount every day in just 1 hour and 29 minutes.

…Here are a few things I like for today:

"nobody, not even the rain has such small hands." ee cummings

"I am a clock that winds down." Kathy Fish

"Live your life each day as you would climb a mountain. An occasional
glance towards the summit keeps the goal in mind, but many beautiful
scenes are to be observed from each new vantage point." Harold Melchart

"Every forward step we take we leave some phantom of ourselves behind." John Spalding