--A BUSHEL AND
A PECK
…I went to the
doctor and guess what he told me? He
said, “Boy you better try to have fun, no matter what you do.”
…It’s difficult
being truthful with your doctor. That’s
why I never go.
…I’m a
fistfight that’s not going to happen.
…I don’t have
peaks or valleys anymore. I don’t get
too high or too low. Mostly I’m just
pleasantly depressed.
…Things that
don’t work today can work tomorrow. One
of my best friends recently told me that.
I hope they’re right.
…I’m going to
put this world away for a minute and pretend that I’m not in it.
…Everywhere you
go, you’re the star of the show.
…Love’s got a
funny way of keeping score.
…If you find
your way back here, you might notice that I’m having a record year.
…Sometimes it’s
best to just to let the book fall open.
…The spare (or
despair) takes us in when we have nowhere else to go.
…All I did
today was make a list of beautiful questions.
…When you’re
alone a lot, you have to invent your own happiness. It’s actually not that hard, if you try.
…Anytime it
hails, I feel happy. I love the
thunderous rumble of it, the thousand white pebbles bouncing all over the place,
the sound like convulsing, that feeling like the world is closing in but not
quite. It feels urgent, as if the sky is
purging itself, yet in your mind you know it’s not going to last.
…The other day
it started hailing. I mean really
hard. I couldn’t hear anything other
than the ping, ping, pinging, and my dog got a little anxious. She thought someone was knocking at the door
repeatedly.
…Hail is my
favorite precipitation. I’d like to lie
down on the grass and have it bury me.
…In a lot of
ways, music is the glue that keeps everything together.
…I’m slowly
planning my survival.
…I go out every
night, but I sleep all day.
…One of these
days the dog is going to talk. I wonder
what she’ll say.
…Sleep and I
have a strange relationship. One of us
is always greedier than the other.
…My neighbor
has been my neighbor for ten years now.
In that entire time, he’s never said more than ten words to me. I’m okay with that. I get that people want their privacy. As I’m writing this, he’s flying a miniature
motorized airplane over the lake. Mostly
it’s on my side of the lake so that it looks like it’s going to crash into my
office window. It looks a little boring,
but he really likes it. He’ll fly that
thing for hours and hours.
…Imperfectly
perfect—do you really think there’s such a thing? And if so, please explain it to me.
…Yes,
please.
…I don’t know
if you know it or not, but your happiness makes me very happy. Your success makes me glad. Truly.
…I’m not
tense. I’m just very, very alert.
…There’s a
really long trail—40 plus miles—not far from my house. I usually run beside the trail where
horseback riders have cut a path. It’s
easier on the knees and the route, while going in the same direction, allows
you to see more things because sometimes you’re six feet below where the trail
is. Yesterday I was trotting along and
right in the middle of the path was a cat.
At first I thought it was stuffed.
Then I thought it might be dead, though its eyes were open and it was
looking at me. I figured it would dart
away once I got close, but it didn’t budge, so I ran around it, saying, “Way to
stand your ground, Cat.” He didn’t
answer or look back. Kind of strange,
but kind of cool.
…This is where
I usually find myself lately, a little past midnight.
…I’d go
crawling down the avenue.
…Is it really
better to burn out than to fade away? I
guess we’ll find out.
…I’m following
your lead, so please be easy with that leash.
…The thing is,
we’ve still got time.
…You’re the
last thing on my mind (just ask Aaron Wright.)
…And a hug
around the neck.
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